Oh that happens too?

When you're not as cute as Rory Gilmore, life can be quite demanding. You don't get free drinks, you can't sit on a chair without that couple pounds of stomach fat showing up and you certainly can't get away wearing skinny jeans and flat shoes without looking you're about to explode.
And oh yeah, all that can be quite triggering and make you end up with an eating disorder. I may or I may not have one, but my relationship with food is just not normal, not sure about disordered. Or maybe I'm just tricking myself into thinking I'm fine and there's nothing to worry about. Because sometimes that's what our mind does best. Instead of making us notice what's surrounding us, it just makes up an unreal world. I don't know why this happens, but it does happen.
I'm becoming quite a successful young girl, or so I would like to believe. Actually I feel like an over stressed young girl who is losing control over everything and having no time at all to stop and think. To enjoy. To laugh. Oh, yeah, and that's triggering too. I'm not coping well with having a new job and outstanding grades, and I'm punishing my body with bingeing/purging episodes. The last two days that's all I did for hours, when I should have been working so I could go out tonight.
Oh well, so depression and eating disorders happen. But do they pass too?